New Beginnings

This is a piece that is being written straight to post. I normally write a piece and figure out if it is good enough to keep. For the first time, i am writing this straight to the public. This is very weird because this is also my most disjointed piece in terms of inspiration. Technically, 3 years in the making. I wrote a piece upon emerging from a dark place.....and i lost it cause my computer crashed. Well, i saw this picture that reminded me of it and in thinking about the picture i thought of a wide host of things along the way; a few unused lines here and there, being newly sprung and to top it of, i was just talking to a young woman about new beginnings (works out cause i just found the title). I thought i should just put something down and see how it turns out so.....here goes nothing.


New Beginnings
It was a cold dark night. It has been nothing but cold dark nights.
I would lay my head to sleep and wish for sweet dreams, but not quite,
because no matter how tight i shut my eyes, i would lay awake pondering my plight.
There was nothing, no one, no reason i could ever feel again.
With all that's been said and done, i could not have possibly emerged alright,
so i went to sleep last night knowing i would wake up to a day just like yesterday... and the day before....and the day before that,
where every gesture of emotion would remind of pain.
But i woke up today and it was different.
Out of the immense chaos and darkness that is my emotion, comes a ray of light,
like the candle in the eye of a hurricane that refuses to wither and still burns bright.
That light that emerged was you, for i gazed into your eyes,
and in there i found myself, the fire in my emotion that refuses to die,
its seemed like a little flicker but i looked deeper and it grew to a blaze,
it took a second, its been a while but i recognize it now,
the happiness is all of a sudden so familiar,
did i forget how wonderful happy was, the question is how,
because since i lay eyes on you everything is back to the way it used to be,
to think i begun to question God, only to find that you are God sent,
to think the pain of the past had me too scared to live in the present,
and now because of you, i am living with reckless abandon awaiting what the future has to present,
you have freed me from myself and now you have become the reason my heart ticks,
as if you were a drug and me an unfortunate addict,
your smile brings me the euphoria surpassing that professed about extasy trips,
your love to my heart is like air to my lungs,
so i can belt out a love melody too sweet to be left unsung,
your coming is like the first break of spring warmth out of a cold long dark winter,
made even more beautiful by the sight of the first bloom of spring flowers.
Like a medicine man in the presence of his deity
i am possessed. You have me, all of me.
my heart, itinerant in its ways has found a home,
I have found a home
a home in you.