Wasted

This unlike most of my pieces is a little darker. I think this was a collage of a whole lot of negative emotions and experiences with the various "relationships" i have had. As a compilation it might be a little mean but really this is an abstract piece not directed towards anyone.

Wasted
I remember the first time i saw u, u looked tight,
so of course, i had no choice but to lay the game right,
but nah, u weren't meant for me, i mean i pulled it,
i had been waiting for this for a while only to find out how i hated it,
...... the game was wasted there,
i should have let u go soon enough but then i couldn't tell,
let me put it plainly, u were needy as hell,
u played games and ain't even know it,
keeping a smile on ur face was a full time job,
that shit wit u was like a wasted career,
i worked my hardest, well maybe not my hardest,
but u can't say i ain't try but it was all no good,
especially when i was on the top of my game and had a little bit of dough,
the females came around and showed me love but all u did was call em sluts and hoes,
but these girls were actually nice and some cared, but u said all i need is right here,
so i stayed, stayed right here, it was a waste right here,
and when i didn't want to be right here, i tried to walk away,
but no, u won't let me go, u did whatever u could,
and off course, i always stayed cause it made u feel good,
but see i should have left cause whatever we had, had died,
the reason i never understood why at the thought of my absence, u broke down and cried,
we both know there was no need, they were wasted tears,
and i still couldn't see through it all,
u had me broken down, unbelievable, i never thought this wall could ever fall,
i mean i spent nights sending chills down ur spine,
thought the passion that sent ur body limp and u breathless will keep u in line,
but the more intense it got i felt like every action of mine hurt u,
so i won't move cause thoughts overwhelmed me of ur pain,
like old friends sitting and reminiscing over a few beers,
but i shouldn't have been scared, right now its all clear,
those were wasted fears,
u were like concrete walls holding me in,
now that u ain't around, i am enjoying this living,
like Jay, "i am high off life, fuck it i'm wasted"
see, u kill my high and mess up my flow,
u are like rehab, and i am like winehouse screaming,
"they wanna make me go to rehab......I said no no no"